It’s Overflowing

It’s overflowing. It’s overflowing to the point that I can’t control it anymore..

I thought this was nothing. I thought it didn’t matter. I thought it was normal. But I never knew I was in denial…in denial of my own feelings.

I found myself asking for signs.

I found myself asking if it’s possible.

I found myself asking If I could even see you one day.

I found myself asking if all these things were just nothing.

But, everyday, my heart keeps on looking for you.

Everyday, I’m thinking about you.

Everyday, you’re growing on me.

Now, I’m scared of confessing because I don’t want to lose you in the process. I don’t want to make things awkward between the two of us. I’m scared that you might find me weird.

I keep on weighing my feelings

Am I just bored?

Am I just playing?

Am I just ….

But my tears are telling me a different story.

I am scared.

I am scared because I’m falling.

My mind is telling me that this is not real.

But my heart keeps on saying, it is.

It’s overflowing. It’s overflowing. I’m trying to bottle it up but’s overflowing.