One of those nights

1 min readSep 6, 2020

Right now, it’s almost midnight, and I am here writing another entry while listening to a song I really like entitled “Dreaming of You”. As I listen to the song, I occasionally get butterflies in my stomach while trying to understand the lyrics in each sentence. Strangely, I don’t like what I am feeling right now.

It’s one of those nights that I can’t sleep without writing a piece. Recently, my mind has been full of questions. It’s so messed up that I can’t even explain how chaotic it is inside.

It’s one of those nights where I’m listening to the same song on repeat, painting stories in my head that I know will never happen. Yes, it will never happen.

It’s one of those nights where my heart feels so heavy for containing my feelings for so long. I’m a very expressive person, and if I can’t express it, I need to write it. With the given situation, I’d rather write it than say it.

I write nonstop until I can make a book. I write nonstop until I get tired. I write until I’m not confused anymore.

But, tonight is one of those nights where I won’t be sleeping unless I stop crying.

I just want to hold you close, but so far, all I have are dreams of you. So I wait for the day and the courage to say how much I love you. Those lyrics keep on repeating in my mind. I know I should stop.

I know.

But yeah, It’s one of those nights.




I look at people's faces, random photos, and places and think, "What If I was there?" "What If it was me?"