A complete mirror of myself. That’s how I describe him. Thoughts. Ambition. Dreams. Perspective. Personality. He’s a complete mirror. We complement each other. I asked The Universe for signs if he was for me or not. I asked because I knew deep inside of me that I wanted to keep him in my life. I knew right from start, there was something about him that I couldn’t explain. I’ve always been very curious about him. but I just brushed it off, thinking that maybe it’s just infatuation.
“He touched my soul long before I knew what his hands felt like.” ― Nikki Rowe
The Universe didn’t give me an answer. I kept on looking for signs but I didn’t see one. Then I realized, the signs that I was looking for were just right underneath my nose all this time. The Universe did not give me any signs but brought my feet to the reality that he’s not my soulmate. Rather, my twin flame.
I looked into the core of my heart. The signs were already written on the palm of my hands. The butterflies. The strong attraction. The soul connection. That even if I tried so hard to run away from the thoughts of him, I keep on coming back. He was my twin flame. I knew it. I knew he felt that attraction too. But the sad reality, he ran away.
I was comfortable opening things up to him. I wasn’t scared of being myself in front of him. I wasn’t scared of being honest with him. I was scared that I could feel what he was feeling. I was scared that I would know what he was thinking. I knew I would lose him in the journey and that left me somehow, incomplete. What we had was so sudden. I lost track of number of days. I lost track of time. The attraction between the two of us was so strong that until now, I couldn’t release the red string of fate.
I never touched his hands but I knew I held them in the past, countless times. I never hugged him before but I knew I once felt the warmth of his body. I never kissed him but I knew how soft his lips were.
Maybe, we need some time to heal from the chaos of our own world before The Universe unites us again. Maybe, we need to work on ourselves so that by the time we see each other, We’re ready to hold each others’ hand. Maybe, we need to wait for another lifetime for us to have our “happy ever after”.